Unhealed Heart

It has been a year since he said " Let's break up. " This 1 whole year, lots of stuffs happened between both of us. Went through the 1st few months of the break up, with a scarred heart. It was really really tough. So sad and heartbroken, till now, as I'm typing this, I still feel like crying.

I still remember a week before we broke up, we were having a cold war. We did not contact each other for a week, at least. And the day before, while I'm having badminton session with my friends in a public badminton court, he texted and said want to have a talk with me. At that moment, I knew what will going to happen, I cried in front of my friends, my friend's relatives and as well as tons of strangers.

That night, met him in my uni, sat beside the lake. We talked. When he asked for breakup, my heart shattered, I'm trembling inside but he did not see, I did not cry. I even asked for a goodbye hug before he leaves. 

That night, I cried, without tears, in a very dark room, alone.

Since then, I smile and am a happy go lucky girl during the days when I'm surrounded with friends, I cried with my heartache (literally) during the night when I'm alone in the dark room.

1 year has gone by, time do past really fast. But my heart, is still not mend yet, it is still broken. But I believe, 1 day, I will meet someone better than him, I will mend my heart, I will not shed a tear for him anymore. 

Wish me luck.