Darkness.

I had faith in you, that you will contact me back in no time.

Friends told me that they are impressed by me. That I can endure all these stuffs you did on me. That I can bear with all these mood swings and weird treatment you did it to me. I wonder, is this a compliment from them, or just another sarcastic statement telling me, that I'm being stupid, and I shouldn't bear with all these stuffs. Is unfair to me.

All these while, I'm thinking real hard, why am I still clinging on you. Is it because of me, not willing to let go or because of habit. Habit of having you in my daily routine. Well, there's both though. I'm not willing to let go AND having you in my daily life. Most importantly, is love.

I don't want to give up so fast. I have faith on both of us, on our relationship. I know we can go through this. I know you will not let me go easily.

All these days, without texts and calls, is a hell for me. I seem normal during the day, happy around my friends. But when ever I'm alone, the only thing that appear inside my mind, is you. And that, brings me tears. Lonely.

I thought I'm fine after the last message you sent me, I thought I'm fine after I cried so much, I thought I'm fine with friends around me. But, I'm wrong. I'm not fine, at all.