Decision Is Decision

Time check, 0150 hours. (After editing this post) I should be sleeping, not blogging. But I couldn't fall asleep. My brain, have too many things flashing out at the same time. This minute was the story line of Taiwan drama I'm watching. Haha.. The next minute I'm worrying about my A Level exam. I'm scared of Mechanics like seriously. I don't want to get an B or C or even failed my maths.

My dad said to me this afternoon, he said I will not pass my A Level exam. A Level exam as in the final one. The freaking huge will-change-your-life-forever that kind of exam. He said why don't I choose to go for Form 6 since their syllabus is almost the same. And is FOC. Why don't you discuss with me earlier dad? :(

During primary school days, teacher always ask us what we want to do when we grow up. Since then, my ambition is to become a veterinarian. I love animals a lot and I'm a dog lover. Too bad I stay in a condo, no pets allowed. Hah! How on Earth there this kind of rules in Malaysia.

My mum told me why didn't I choose Pet Grooming this course since I love dogs and furry animals so much. And I told her I wanted to become a Vet so I can treat and cure and give loves to them. And yea, I chosen A Level instead.

After 1 and a half semester of A Level course, I think I'm too naive. I thought that A Level will be like normal school exam and maths will only have 1 type. But no, in A Level, Maths have 3 sub maths. Pure, Statistic and Mechanic. Get 3 good result, and there goes A Star for you. 1 fail, say goodbye to your Grade A.

I'm thinking, should I stop taking A Level now? Should I stop being so stubborn to become a Vet? Should I listen to my mum's advice to become a Pet Groomer instead? But if I give up now, half of my mum saving that had been paid for my course will be all gone by now. But if I didn't get good result by the end of the course, and I give up, then I choose to become a Pet Groomer. And my mum have to pay again for the course I'm taking. That will be cost a lot! And my mum will kill me if I did that.

I'm so emo right now. I don't know what should I do. Maybe I should just find a rope, and hang myself until the last breath. Or maybe I should not give up, get a good result then when my mum ask me what I want to do next, I'll just tell her I take up technical course instead of professional course. I think this will prevent my mum from killing me.

Not only Mechanics, the whole A Level subjects are making me nuts! Insomnia is so going to become my BFF soon. After typing out my thoughts and sobbing right here. I think I should get back to my beauty sleep. People, please think trice before you make an important decision.

Not so cheers