what's wrong with me?

被爱比爱好
somebody love you better than you love somebody

recently something had happened between me and him and him..
i not really sure because of what..
what i know is just because of jealousy..

recently i felt so down..
i tried to release it by releasing my tears..
but i don't know why..
no matter how hard i tried..
it won't come out..
the heart was so pain and heavy..

what's wrong with me??